A portrait of the artist as a young woman in a Berlin that can’t escape its history: an electric debut novel about the daughter of Afghan refugees and her year of nightclubs, bad romance, and self-discovery

‘Kaleidoscopic, full of style and soul‘ Raven Leilani
‘A must-read ? Dark, breathtaking, profound, so fresh’ Guardian
‘A no-bullshit must-read debut‘ Kaveh Akbar
‘Delicious, propulsive reading‘ Vogue

Born in Germany to Afghan parents, Nila has spent her adolescence disappointing her family while searching for her voice. Now in Berlin’s techno-filled warehouses, their walls still scarred by the ravages of the last century, she has found her tribe.

Then Nila meets American writer Marlowe. As she is sucked into his seductive but controlling orbit, and ugly racial tensions begin to roil through Germany, she is forced to ask herself the question she’s been running from: who does she want to be?

‘Rarely has the wildness and bewilderment of youth been conveyed with such richly textured heat‘ Garth Greenwell

‘Kaleidoscopic, full of style and soul‘ Raven Leilani
‘A must-read ? Dark, breathtaking, profound, so fresh’ Guardian
‘A no-bullshit must-read debut‘ Kaveh Akbar
‘Delicious, propulsive reading‘ Vogue

In Berlin’s underground, where techno rattles buildings still scarred with the violence of the last century, nineteen-year-old Nila finds her tribe. In their company she can escape the parallel city that made her, the public housing block packed with refugees and immigrants, where the bathrooms are infested with silverfish and the walls outside are graffitied with swastikas.

Escaping into the clubs, Nila tries to outrun the shadow of her dead mother, once a feminist revolutionary; her catatonic, defeated father; and the cab-driver uncles who seem to idle on every corner. To anyone who asks, her family is Greek, not Afghani.

And then Nila meets American writer Marlowe Woods, whose literary celebrity, though fading, opens her eyes to a world of patrons and festivals, one that imbues her dreams of life as an artist with new possibility. But as she finds herself drawn further into his orbit and ugly, barely submerged tensions begin to roil and claw beneath the city’s cosmopolitan veneer, everything she hopes for, hates, and believes about herself will be challenged.

‘Rarely has the wildness and bewilderment of youth been conveyed with such richly textured heat’ Garth Greenwell